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just went to pick bunny up at school.  was in lovely, meditative state after watching dharma mittra spiritual discourse and practicing for an hour or so.  i got to school and initially she was so happy and excited because it was her friend laraiaes' birthday and they had cupcakes.  by the time i signed her out and got her outside she had started to meltdown and became hysterical.  so we sat in the school yard for 15 minutes while she screamed and cried.  finally i picked her up and started to carry her home.  she punched me in the eye.  it hurt a lot.  she screamed all the way home.  i carried her upstairs and put her in her room, to much protestation.    now, after 15 minutes or so she seems to be slowing down the tantrum enough to say her tummy hurts.

fucking cupcakes man.

why?

why do you feed my kid crack and then send them home for me to deal with it?  poor thing.

baby vibes

sleepy today.  need to go watch the dharma mittra dvds, but wanted to share first.  so last month I wrote down my cycle because we have been thinking that we would start trying for baby the newer in august after my yoga course, and i was curious what that would mean in terms of actual days etc.  since i started my period june 20, i counted out i would be theoretically ovulating in august around the 22nd.  so that is where my mind was.  but today one of my colleagues in the studio was teaching a new mom who brought her 3wk old baby with her and the strangest thing happened to me: i got the nursing tingles.  that's wierd, see, since i stopped nursing ava almost a year ago, and my milk dried up a year ago for sure.  but it made me think that, ok, this isn't just a theory... i really do want another baby, now.  which is good because it has seemed a little theoretical up until now, which was a positive change from DEFINITELY NOT RIGHT NOW which was the predominant sentiment from september 2004 until this past march.

so anyways, i came home and looked at the calendar and noticed that i will start a new cycle on the 18th which is a full moon, so that seems auspiscious.  that would put me ovulating around the last of the month.  seems to me that being only a day or two pregnant during my yoga course wouldn't be a problem.  so now i think i may as well put out the welcome mat to my second child starting the 18th.  which is next week!  yay!

and that means, if it takes it takes.  and if it doesn't, no harm trying sooner than later.  and if it takes then i am due for babyhaving a month sooner and have all next summer to get my figure back before fall dancing season.  i like this plan.  plus it means no condoms on vacation and that is always better ;)

L8

hmmmmm... here i am.  this will be a short one since elmo's world is wrapping up which means DINNER TIME.  i have decided to cook vegan during the week for me & biscuit and only eat meat when daddy is home to cook it.  atleast through the summer when the veggies are so abundant.  last night we had a kind of crudite raw veggie plate with kidney beans and yummy vegan ranch (i mean it, it was actually yummy).  tonight we are having corn on the cob which came in the box today and a salad i made with: garbanzos, cucumber, green pepper, cilantro, basil, garlic, olive oil and seasoned rice vinegar.  it has been marinating through sesame street.  i am hungry.  woot.

bunny does great with the vegan stuff and the raw stuff, so hooray.  matt and i have been trying to eliminate our recycling pile in an attempt to de-polymer our life.  he has been making homemade hummus from dried garbanzos and bulk tahini, and making his own yogurt too, since we figured out that we were buying most of our plastic containers with those items.  so far, so good.  it is amazing how much of a relief it is to be making less trash.  everytime i look at the pacific i think of that floating plastic island... still so far to go, though, on that carbon imprint.

off i go.  dinner calls.